Well, it has been a long MINUTE since I blogged. I am blaming the holidays and trying to find balance in the new year. Balancing kids, husband, friends, work, and the everyday household stuff is tricky. Being satisfied that you gave all areas of your life, your best, is straight up defeating, sometimes.
There are many days when I am like “UGH, what kind of example did I lead today? ” “Did I do more good or did I do more bad?” Times when I am so burnt out on using my nice voice. Times where I should be more patient. Times when I just don’t feel up to repeating myself again. Evenings when I just cannot wait for it to be bedtime.
and then… when it is quiet, the kids are asleep, and I am alone with my thoughts… I think about the things I could have, should have , done better. As a mommy, I wonder what kind of people I am putting out into the world. I make a promise to myself to do a little better the next day. To be more aware.
Then I see my sweet boys interacting with other kids and adults and I can breathe a sigh of relief, because I must be doing something right. They are kind, strong, thoughtful little gentlemen.
Mommy life isn’t easy. But it sure as heck is the most fulfilling, heart exploding with love, job on the planet.
I believe it’s good to evaluate ourselves, in every aspect of life. It’s also important not to beat ourselves up, and to give ourselves the grace we want to give to our children.
Go a lil easier on yourself, mama. You are doing your best, and that’s what matters. XO